Chapter 4: Yesterday

I've never really thought of myself as a bad kid. I may have done your typical growing up mistake type stuff but nothing to big or destructive. One of my few fears is jail, I'd get eaten alive, so I never was bad in fear of going. For those that don't know I lost my father at a young age. i never really had a father figure growing up, I just learned stuff on my own. But then I was thinking, how would thinks have been different if he were alive? Well for one I know we would have moved to Georgia. For sake of arguing I'll say we stayed there til I graduate high school. So anyway i think my childhood would have been different. For one I probably wouldn't have skated and instead played Basketball as my dad would have liked it. Likewise I probably wouldn't be much of a gamer either. Growing up would have been entirely different. I'm thinking I'd be an only child, as my dad would have had his boy that all men seem to want. I wouldn't have been shy cuz Uncle Calvin and Dad would have undoubtedly made me confident, and probably threw me at girls. My mom would probably be happier, she doesn't admit it now but I know she still hurts and misses Dad. Anyway I would have grown up with my cousin Trey, he's about 4 or 5 years older than me but he always hung out with me when I visited and never treated me as inferior, still doesn't to this day.I'd probably not be as sarcastic and witty, as that's a Jersey thing, I'd be smooth and well...Southern. Hell just thinking about my accent when I visit for extended time makes me laugh. I wouldn't have known anyone I know now, but new people. I'm thinking that life overall would have been not necessarily better, but different. I just felt I had to get that out, I think about it sometimes, how things would have been different, but I like where I'm at now. I got good friends, a decent personality and people seem to like me so I'm cool. Now if only I could solve that female problem...but that's another Chapter now isn't it.